Gerry Turner was having suicidal thoughts after going through a divorce

The golden bachelor Gerry Turner revealed in her new memoir that she battled suicidal thoughts after her crack Theresa Nist, US of the Week can confirm.

In the treasure from the book, entitled The Golden Years: What I Learned from Love, Loss, and Reality TVand obtained by TMZ on Monday, November 3, Turner, 74, details sweet thoughts – after another, at 72, announced their divorce in April 2024. (This page The golden bachelor Exes tied the knot three months earlier on ABC.)

“If there will be a lot of comments about the rumors and I will press about me, whatever it was and sympathize (gerry sis-sportufful),” he wrote in the case, which has been confirmed We. “I started to avoid people completely, whether it was walking later when I entered a friend’s house or parking behind the supermarket and entering by saying hello.”

Turner added, “The people who tried to support it were very difficult to deal with. I could just write the haters, but how could I let them know that their intentions are good, ‘please stop talking about it!’ I was sick of talking about myself. I wanted to be invisible. “

He found himself fighting unpleasant thoughts, day and night.

He wrote: “At some point, I don’t even want to get out of bed. When I go to bed at night, I will try to find something positive and think about it, but the worst comment is too much.”

Turner continued, “One night, when I was lying in bed and staring at the ceiling, it all became too much, and because of many times, I thought about putting a gun to my head. And I thought I was putting a gun to my head. And I thought I was putting a gun to my head. [daughters] Jenny and Unie. I would never do that to my daughters, but I don’t believe I want to kill myself. My suicidal thoughts were the words of my desire to disappear. ”

The real star says “he used to have the mentality of a Marathon when I could endure any kind of pain for a while because I knew that in the end it would not go away.”

In October, Therder revealed that he he did happily Lana sutton. Last week, he appeared on the “Bachelor Happy” Podcast last week to address criticism that he had developed too much shortly after splitting up from year to year.

“I don’t want to sound disrespectful at all. I don’t think I’m divorced,” Therter said on the October 28 episode, saying, “Sea, you know, you know this man who was married for 43 years wouldn’t have. ‘I’m divorced.’

Turner and NIIS AND TWO DURING THE 2023 SEASON The golden bachelorand the exchange of vows during a televised ceremony in January 2024.

It’s funny Divorce filed That April, citing the “unpleasant breakdown” of their marriage as the reason for the split.

between The Golden AgeTurner sighed Faith Martin – second runner-up on the show – That she felt “stuck” before marrying nost. While recalling the moment during an exclusive interview with WeTurner shared that she “felt like [he] he was doing the right thing by “walking down the aisle.